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16 Jan 2014

Small Steps For Abby Gene, Big Steps for Mama

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The day has come. I knew it might be a long road, but I never knew that it would take this much to get here.

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12 Nov 2013

#InspiredBy My Husband…The Honest Man

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“Honesty is the first chapter of the book wisdom.” – Thomas Jefferson

This week the Today Show has been talking to people that inspire. I love inspiration. I am a dreamer. I am a doer. I am a person who does find stregnth from people that inspire me each day to do better, reach for more, live for more, and help me realize that I am fortunate enough to live the life that I live in so many ways.

But today, I am inspired by my husband. He much like many other men in America. He works for his family and loves us unconditionally. He is hard working, honest, caring and loving, and today I could not be prouder of him and feel more inspired by his actions. Today he will received, what I think, is one of the most prestigious awards. A citizen award from the Tampa Police Department. He helped catch a few “bad guys” in our neighborhood and because of him, a few of them are no longer stealing from our neighbors. He did the right thing. He didn’t make it a big deal, but I think it is a huge deal. He’s not the spotlight kind of person…that’s just him. And all the more reason he inspires me.

Chance inspires me because from the moment I meet him because he’s always wants to do the right thing. Family values are the highest of priority for him. Because that’s what matters the most. He has taught me that above all, it is family that should be put first. He has a strong set of values I hope our children will carry with them through life.

Today, we will watch him be recognized for something that he did because he knew it was right. A lesson any parent wants to teach their children: right from wrong. I am inspired by his humbleness and his willingness to always do the right thing. He has done it for many years when no one was looking. This inspires me to make sure that I am living my best life, but I hope my children will remember today too. It might make their road of life easier to navigate if they is always honest. We can show our children how we’d like them to behave, but we can only pray for our children to do the right thing when the time comes for them to make decisions without us.

So that’s my daily dose of inspiration. I hope that you find inspiration from people around you too. The people who are in my life, those who I call friends and family, I am inspired by each and everyone of you in simple ways that you probally don’t even realize. Thank you for keeping me going. I know you are in my life for a reason and I am so glad you are there too.

12 May 2013

Life is Good Today

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As the saying goes, you never know what you have till it’s gone.

Every Saturday night, I go to bed thinking of what happened that one Saturday night, when everything that could have gone wrong did go wrong. I think about what I could have done, should have done or would do differently. Yes, I know…don’t beat yourself up.

But life is good today. Today was the first time in two weeks I saw MY Jake. I never realized how much your child is your child… in every which way. Mannerisms, personality, look, smell, touch. In conversation with a friend, I said, I knew I had to be patient. But I didn’t want anything but MY Jake back.

Again, it’s been two weeks and life is good. We are back to normal. Normal is AMAZING! Jake is back to being more happy. He is his back to sports, back to helping his little sisters, back to smiling and being the Jake that I have raised to be Jake. He finally has the sparkle back in his eyes.

This has been a trying and growing adventure. I have grown as a parent and on this Mother’s Day, I could ask for nothing more than what I have. Life is good today. Life is good today.

02 May 2013

Was it a dream?

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“Jake! Jake! I know your in there. Come on Bubba. Look at me. Talk to me. Say my name. Who am I? Come on Jake. Wake up. Please. Please squeeze my hand. Please.”

***

I said these words in my worst nightmare. Because that is what I am convinced it was. I’ve gone through the days that just past and it doesn’t seem real. But I know it happened.

Jake is doing amazing. He doesn’t remember much. He remembers playing in his baseball game on Saturday and earning the game ball. Not much after that. Wish I could say that I’ve blocked the next 72 hours from my memory too.

***

On Monday when the Nurologist came to talk to us, he said he didn’t like what he saw. He said we would have to be patient. Wait it out. But it didn’t look good. I think that was when things went surreal. This wasn’t happening. Not possible. I don’t really remember Monday either. I hadn’t slept in 24 hours. I had not had coffee. I didn’t care what I looked like or about much else. It was crisis mode and my body took over for me.

Hour after hour passed. He did start to show signs that he was coming around. I prayed. I made promises. We waited. I cried. I talked, but can’t remember to who. I saw improvements but didn’t know. Slow. Slow and steady wins the race, right?

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On Monday at 6:30, I walked into the room and Jake said, “Hi Mommy!” Like he does every morning. Every morning of every day. Just like nothing had happened. I snapped out of the nightmare I was in and jumped into the dream I had that everything would be ok.

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Being home. Having my family together. Carting all 4 kids places. Watching them play. Listening to their sweet voices. Reading bedtime stories. Tucking 4 kids in bed. Kissing them goodnight and telling them I will see them tomorrow. This is my dream. I didn’t realize that I was living my dream until I woke up from this nightmare. I have my dream life and I hope I never wake up from this sleep.

30 Apr 2013

The Best Day Ever

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My Jake is back.

He is talking, up, alert, reading, smiling, and being Jake. The improvement is vast considering where we were 48 hours ago.

Thank you, thank you thank you for everyone’s prayers. Knowing that everyone has been thinking of our family has been overwhelming.

We are still watching Jake in the ICU.

The brain/ body is an amazing thing not to be taken for granted. Chance and I have learned more about the kids condition and what lies ahead of us for the kids and how we can better take care of them when they get sick.

We are blessed that Jake has come so far. All signs point to Jake making a full recovery. I don’t know if I’ll ever get back the years back I lost since Sunday morning.

So kids your kids, kiss your loved ones and be thankful for today.

Jake earned the game ball on Saturday. Life moves fast and furious. It can change in a matter of moments. Today I am thankful that Jake is back, Shelby is healthy, Mia is happy and Abby is recovering from surgery beautifully! One day at a time. That’s all I can ask for. I’ll worry about tomorrow later.

29 Apr 2013

The Perfect Storm

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The perfect storm consists of everything in my most darkest nightmares to happen at one time. Today was that day. I knew that it was always a possibility but I didn’t think I would see it happen for a while.

Both Jske and Shelby are resting in ICU from an adrenal crisis. It was the stomach bug, low sodium, low sugar and other levels that were thrown onto a spiral that I could not control.

With 2 kids side by side in the ER at 5am, my world came to a stand still. This is what it feels like to have your heart torn from your body. We waited for both kids to be transferred to the ICU where we wait. We wait to see the damage caused by the perfect storm we couldn’t prevent.

CAH is the condition that we live with daily. It’s not something that is common. Nor something you would even be able to know the kids have. But when it is time, it comes out with a vengeance and makes sure we know it lives with us.

My disaster relief team is large and strong. They come in packs, doing everything to help us get through this tough time. I lean on them for support and for honestly do not know how I could make it through some days without them. I hope they know I would do the same for any of them on any given day.

But now we wait. We wait for Jake to show us signs that he is ok. Shelby is doing much better. Resting but here. I do not like to sit still, but when you are in the eye of the perfect storm, that is what you have to do. Sit still and wait for the storm to pass to see the rainbow.

17 Dec 2012

My New Normal

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I haven’t cried.

Not yet.

Not until this morning…when I took my kids to school and learned I had a new normal too.

I did my usual Monday Morning routine of getting up, getting backpacks ready, getting lunches made, making coffee and making breakfast for my kids.

It’s our normal every school day routine. It’s what we know and what we expect.

We got in the car, we talked about how fun the day was going to be… who we were looking forward to seeing and what we were going to do after school. Just like normal.

I thought I was doing good. I had really tried to stay away from the news and pretend like we weren’t really affected by what had happened. I honestly had not cried. It was terrible and I knew that, but it wasn’t effecting my family directly.

However, today was not the normal Monday once we arrived on campus. The first thing my kids did point out the not-so-normal. The police officers standing next to our administration building. The police car.

“Why are they here?”

“What happened?”

That was when everything set in in my mind. This is the normal. This is our new normal. I told my kids that we had a new rule when they got out of the car.

“You have to give me a kiss as well as Shelby and Abby.”

We get rushed. They get rushed out the door. We know we will see each other later. Right? Of course! Like always…

I kissed my kids goodbye…for the day today.

I told them I loved them and I would see them after school… right? That’s what always happens. It’s our normal.

I still have one more left in the car.

I will walk her into school. We walked into school and we walked past the police officers. They said “hi” and they smiled. They gave me a look like they knew that I knew that she was too young to know what had happened. We were on the same page. Protection. They didn’t want to be here as much I didn’t want them to be there. Why did they have to be there? Nothing was going to happen, right? And if something were to happen, they would protect her, right?

Shelby said it best. “Mommy they will keep me safe.”

I could only hope that someone would.

So we walked my last pre-schooler into class. I have her a hug and a kiss and told her I would see her later…just like always…

I went back to the car with the baby and cried. I cried out loud and prayed that my babies would be safe today. I prayed for all the families who could not walk their little ones to school and prayed that all of us who did would see our little ones at 2:30 for pick up.

It wasn’t until this morning that I realized a lot of things are different.

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Having a six-year-old makes me go one step further to only fathom The loss that the families of Sandy Hook Elementary School are feeling today. With their new normal setting in, I can’t imagine what their new normal feels like. I don’t want to.

Today is the first day of their new normal too. They are finding out how to deal with their new normal. And some how, life does move on. Time doesn’t stop. It continues to move on.

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I’m planning a birthday party for my 6 year old this week. She will be six turning seven.

I will get to see my daughter turn seven.

As we celebrate my daughter’s seventh birthday with such excitement and joy, but my thoughts will be with all those parents who will not be celebrating seventh birthdays with their children.

I’m not sure if it will effect my daughter like December 14th has effected me, but I know that all of her firsts will not come for some families. What she will be able to do will not be able to be done by the children who went to heaven too soon. On her birthday each year, I will try to remember that we are still here for some reason. For some reason, it happened some place else and not at her school. We will celebrate being able to still be around on this Earth… for some reason.

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I haven’t cried until now. My new normal will take a while for me to get used to. I cry today because I don’t like my new normal. I’m sure there are many others crying today too because they don’t like their new normal either.

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15 Dec 2012

Funniest Christmas Card Ever

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I made this on Pic Minkey. Best photo editing software free on the web. Simple. Easy.

The card speaks the truth. Probally what we were all thinking!

08 Apr 2012

You win some. You lose some. Today, I lost.

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Do you see the picture above? It’s my OFFICIAL invite to the White House. Yes, I actually did get invited to the 134th Annual Easter Egg Roll at the White House.

Today was a very hard day for me. Yup. Among other things going so wonderful in my life, today, my balls dropped mid air, and I was the only one to blame.

I was so excited to have actually been invited to the White House for a #WHTweetUp. If you are not on Twitter, then you probaly don’t know that the White House actually invited people that “tweet” to the White House for events. I put my name in a hat and got the OFFICIAL invite a few days later.

I told EVERYBODY! Yup! The whole wide world knows that I was supposed to go to the White House. I like to do big things. Go big or GO HOME. Why not? If you aren’t going to dream big and try to get somewhere, then why work so hard for something you really want? I REALLY wanted this. The opportunity to go the the White House, MAYBE meet the President, take the kids around DC, do something most people don’t get the opportunity to do. Yup. That’s me. I take pride in my accomplishments. Always have. I’ve been tweeting, reading and following all the AMAZING people that would be at the event. It sounded SO amazing. A opportunity of a lifetime. Who does this? Me, I guess! My lucky day.

And for those who know about a project I launched a few years back, THIS was MY chance to be a part of an event that was exactly something I had been working on since Michele Obama launched Let’s Move in 2010. Fit Kids Playground would ACTUALLY be GOING to the White House! I could show everybody what we were doing in Tampa and how we were trying to make a difference.

To say, that I was excited was an understatement. I was going to actually be able to GO to the White House, take the kids and participate in a 130 year old tradition, the Easter Egg Roll on the White House Lawn. Wow. Yup. Pretty cool. So despite the fact that tickets cost a body part, and it was going to be a tight budget, with the help of my parents, we made it happen, or at least I thought I pulled it off until Friday…then again on Sunday morning at 5:30AM at the airport, with all kids in tow.

For those who know me well, yes, I AM busy. But organized. Yes, I feel like I have logistics in order for managing 3 kids, business obligations and more, but today, my “super powers” were gone today and I couldn’t pull out of a mistake that was made a few days ago. It really sucks. I don’t like not being able to fix things.

Because of logistical error that WAS (and I hate pointing fingers) my banks fault (admittedly). I thought that things were straightened out on Friday and we were set to fly out on Sunday…the 8th, not the 15th, as the new tickets stated. We were booked for an incorrect date…that I didn’t catch until it was too late. This is where it comes back to me. My fault that I didn’t check the date of the re-booked tickets. So getting to the airport at 5:30 THIS morning meant nothing as our tickets were for another day. I hate being wrong. I hate not being able to fix things. I hate this feeling. I don’t like letting people down, and I am the one who probaly let myself down the most today.

My kids…could honestly care less. They don’t judge. They don’t hold a grudge. They weren’t mad at me because I F*ed up. They are 6 and 7 and love me no matter what. As I am writing this, it makes me remember that life is full of lessons. Life goes on. The sun is still shining, and they still love their Mom, no matter what…even if I did mess up an opportunity of a lifetime. But maybe it wasn’t meant to be…maybe there is a reason…right…I hope so…Maybe I am the one to take the lesson home from this experience. Mistakes happen. Life goes on. Sometimes, it really sucks.

I tried. I tried so hard, but with out another $2000 to rebook AGAIN, I just couldn’t fix this HUGE mistake. I sat in the airport with 2 VERY patient kids while I waited to figure out what to do.

So here I am now, 3 hours later…at home…on Easter…with my family. (That doesn’t sound bad either, right.) I’ve spent the morning thinking about the events that just happened and how I would tell all my supportive friends and family about my f* up. I thought about lying and saying I got sick and going into hiding. Silly,right. Nope, just didn’t want to admit that it was my fault. Couldn’t do that either. Why should anyone else care what happened? But I do.

I love the support I receive from my friends and family. Yes, I know I am crazy with being pregnant and involved as I am with my projects, clients, family, and everything else under the sun. It your support means so much, you’ll never know. I think anyone supporting anyone else or a cause means so much. Thank you for the well wishes. I am so lucky to have friends and family that care as much as I do. I wish I had cool pictures and stories to talk about. It should have been REALLY fun. I guess I will watch it live tomorrow…from my couch.

Maybe I will get the opportunity to do this again at another event. Who knows. Yes, I VERY disappointed in the turn of events, but I still cannot change me getting to DC, short of a miracle. The Easter Egg Roll is tomorrow and there is no way we can afford to fix this. So I guess our airline credit will have to sit in the “bank” until later and maybe we can win the #WHTweetUp lottery again. My lesson learned.

So as I listen to the kids laughing and not even thinking about what I messed up today, I guess I shouldn’t be so hard on myself. But I am. Just me. It’s not like I threw away a winning lottery ticket…well, kind of…I guess I should just go back to being Clark Kent for a while. I am getting ready to have a baby…another kind of lottery we have won 4 times.

So here’s our version of the White House #EasterEggRoll Not as fancy, but just fine for my kids.

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02 Oct 2011

The Best Lives Are Never Planned

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If you are wondering what I have been up to for the past 7 years, here is a link to my previous blog: Good Livin’. I still try and post occasionally on it as well as here. Looking back, I don’t know how I managed to fit in everything I did. I guess when you are having fun time flies. This post is my first post in a while. I realized that I really didn’t plan for what my life has given me. Kind of ironic since I’m definitely a planner.

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